Wednesday, July 23, 2014

Blind to see

How are you?
Fine.
How do you want me to help you?
I think, Lord, you know that. 
I want to hear it from you. Sure, make a list.
1. get divorced from Gloria without having to give her any of my possessions
2. Os gets his papers so that he can start his own business and not be frightened
3. i want to be happy
4. i want to understand what I read all of it, especially scientific papers/books/etc.
5. I want to be respected at work and seen well by my peers
6. I want to be used by you and hear you.
7. I want my family to accept and enjoy Os
8. I don't want Os' family to be a burden to me but still see them every now and then
9. I want to look good and lose weight
10. I want to stop being discouraged and disappointed in you. 

I can do all these things and more. Have patience my son. Your life will quickly change and you will know that I am your God. 

Lord, I feel that the innocent part of me was lost with this whole marriage process. I don't trust people, and I hardly trust You. Help me with my unbelief. 

Lord, help me with my unbelief.

can i do anything else, Gerry?

Be my friend, walk and talk with me. Hold me, help me, guide me. 

Listen to me and you will discover things you've never known before. Jesus died so that we can have a relationship. We are here. Thank you for your heart towards your fellow friends. 

I want to know that what I hear is God and not anything else. Favor is in the son of man. Then by Jesus I will live.